Saturday, August 30, 2008

Being Away

I called my mom yesterday morning (past 9am in UAE, past 1pm in PI). She said she was in a Doctor's clinic to have her eyes checked. Tinanong ko kung sinong kasama nya. Sabi nya, "Wala.". My dad is in Manila. He needs to buy some stuff. But she said she's okay then later cuts the conversation as it is already her turn.

It saddens me na malayo ako. Kung nasa Pinas ako at least she'll have a company sa mga check ups nya. I could ask her to have her check ups scheduled on wkends para wala akong work or I could make paalam sa work if the need is urgent.

Hay, malungkot! This is one of the hardships one has to bear being away from his/her Family. Mahirap maiwan, dahil naranasan ko na yan when I was in Pinas and my mom is working abroad. Pero mahirap din ung ikaw ang nasa malayo. You can't be there right away pag gusto mo o pag alam mong kelangan ka nila.

This morning, I've learned that my officemates' (sisters cla) father passed away. Kahapon daw. Imagine the agony, kahit gaano nila kagusto to see their dad agad, to hug their mom, they cannot immediately do it. Iiyak ka then later kelangan mo ma-realize ang mga dapat mong gawin... agad! hey, kelangan mo mag-check ng earlieast available flight pauwi and have your things ready... sad!

Pero hindi lang sa kanila nangyari 'yan. Marami pa sa ibang officemates ko at sa iba pang Pinoys working abroad. And I pray that they'll have the courage to move on and the strength to be away again. Dahil kahit hindi pa tapos ang grievance, babalik na naman sa pagiging malayo para magtrabaho.

Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, naiisip ko tuloy 'bakit kase umalis pa ko?'. Pro alam ko sa mga ganitong pagkakataon mas kelangan ko sabihin sa sarili ko na 'May choices ako noon pero eto ang option na pinili ko. At dahil nandito ako, kelangan kong gawin ang kelangan kong gawin.'

I pray that the good LORD would continue to bless my family (and their families) with good health & safety. And by the time na able na ako to be in Pinas for good (Don't want to be forever working abroad. Neither do i want to migrate to other country) i could still enjoy their presence at HOME.


APPLE, 27, OFW

7 comments:

xAnDz said...

ayy sad nman..iba pa rin ang feeling pag lagi mo kasama family mo..pero dont worry lapit na din nman sila punta d2..just think na GOD is always with them..no worries at all..
=)

Anonymous said...

anong kaguluhan to apoinks?wawa nmn frend ko,ako nga din home sick na kaso kailangan e. miss ko na mama ko,miss ko na asawa ko,miss ko na magiging baby ko.sana kasama ko cla sa bawat pagpapa check up nya.kaso ito yung pinili kong choice, Lord kaw na bahala samin ng frend ko ha. miss you aps.baka next week nasa abu dhabs nko. ingats parati.-johnson domanais

Apol :) said...

XandZ - if ever man na makakapunta cla dito this yr they'll be here just to visit... & Yes, the good LORD is always with them. =)

JohnZ - if there's someone na naho-homesick ng sobra i know ikaw un. don't worry masasanay ka din (luk who's talking... hehehe!) tapos pag sanay ka na... uhm, babalik pa rin un paminsan-minsan. hehe! d bale c LORD na bahala.

Ei, have to see you before u go! =)

Pukaykay said...

I know its hard to be far away. (As if naman dang layo ko dati)

kaya nga.. umuwi ng umuwi whenever you can. hehehhe

Apol :) said...

Jami - Oh, yes! ...bruhang 'to. ang yaman ko naman! hehe! =)

Anonymous said...

o nagkita na tyo last day.yun na ba yun?di nko nakapagpaalam sanyo ni kuya francis a.ok nmn ako e,im finding ways to keep me occupied para di ko cla masyado maalala.always praying lang na sana ok cla kahit la masyado income.tsaka in sana always in good health cla.nga pla tumaba naba ulit ako since dumating me d2 sa dubai?oi dala ka ng banana pizza pagdating mo sa mansyon ha,di ko pa natitikman yun e.o kaya frenchfries ng mcdo.o kaya parehas na lang.hehehehe.ingats sweet apol.-nosnhoj

Apol :) said...

Johnz - C Lord ang bahala. No worries... Ur wish will be granted soon.

btw, ur stil payat. =)